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If so, you are not alone. When someone close to you dies by suicide, it affects how you feel and are able to cope. When that person had a mental illness, you may feel additional grief that is difficult for you and others to fully understand.
“If only I’d done more to help, maybe they would still be alive.”
It is not your fault that the person died, but people often feel guilty even though they are not responsible for what happened. Many factors contribute to someone taking their own life. Talking through how you feel can help lessen this feeling of guilt over time.
“I feel very confused, I’m not sure what’s going on.”
When someone you care about has a mental illness, it is natural for this to affect your relationship. It is common to have complicated feelings such as resentment at the unfairness of the world, guilt or even a sense of relief that the person is no longer suffering.
Anger is also a common reaction. You may feel angry at the person or angry at mental health services for not doing enough to prevent the suicide. These are normal reactions, and it is important to talk about them, so you can begin to understand and manage them while you are grieving.
“I didn’t take in their illness, and now they’re gone it’s sinking in.”
After someone with a mental illness dies by suicide, you may find you are grieving for the person they were before the illness, as well as before they died.
It helps to talk about how you felt when the person was diagnosed and how that affected your life. This can help you understand some of the feelings you have as a result of the suicide.
“I feel physically affected — is this normal?”
It is common to feel physical effects. Don’t be alarmed if you have headaches, nausea, begin to walk or speak slowly, or cannot sleep. However, do tell your doctor if these symptoms persist.
“This has hit me hard — I have a mental illness myself.”
The suicide of a family member or friend can be particularly hard and you may feel others do not understand. Talk to your doctor or caseworker about the suicide and ask for some extra support — you need it just as much as anyone.
“Others say I should be finished grieving by now, that I need to move on.”
There is not always a clear beginning or end to grief. Take the chance to grieve in your own way and time. If not, the feelings you do not express may return and be even more upsetting later.
“My friends don’t understand what I’m going through.”
Sometimes people find it difficult to understand mental illness and even harder to understand suicide. Talking to friends can ease feelings of loneliness, so seek out someone supportive to talk to – someone who will be pleased to help.
“I can’t imagine a time when living without the person won’t hurt this much.”
Grief affects everyone differently but, with support, you can find ways to cope with the loss. Talking to a counsellor or joining a support group can be an important step to look at ways to express and process your grief.
Other useful SANE Factsheets on this topic available from the website:
The State Coroner’s Office investigates deaths where the circumstances are sudden, traumatic or unexplained. For more information about how Coroners Courts work, download this Bereavement Information Pack from Living is for Everyone.
Lifeline (24-hour crisis telephone counselling)
13 11 14
National Missing Persons Coordination Centre(8am - 5pm, Monday to Friday)
1800 000 634
1800 642 066
1300 659 467
1800 18 SANE (7263)